I can't stop thinking about my guy friend raping me????

Ok I know I'm a weirdo I don't need to her it and yeah i'm embarrassed so you don't need to be a bunch of *****. We've been friends for a little while and I think he's kinky like me and I can't stop thinking about us having sex and 'raping' me it turns me on so much but are any guys into that? I just don't know how to put myself out there to him because right now we're just friends but i've had a serious bf for a while so he was the only guy I've been with ever but that has ended and he was boring and no other guy has turned me on so much to think about and i haven't gotten any hints from other guys that they might be that way how should I put the moves on him lol not just for rough sex but sex period?